Just Be

So I finally put up a pregnancy ticker. I have been so cautious the last few months and I still have a hard time believing that it worked on the 2nd cycle/1st IUI. Even though there is a ticker I still have a hard time believing. I know a lot can happen in 40 weeks of pregnancy. It took 3 years to make baby #1. And I have a hard time believing that I could be so lucky. At the same time I've started to realise that while I am enjoying this pregnancy, I'm kind of not because I am waiting for the shoe to drop (or whatever that saying is). I really want to let that feeling go. I want to give in and just be pregnant. Because for now I am.